mothers on the verge

Away for the weekend for the Prince's grandmother's memorial and home today with a sick Rabbit. I wanted to give my updates on how I'm progressing with my plan to start seeding some kindness around me that I announced a few days ago. I thought I would give daily updates, but as I started to type them I realized they read like some "Oooo look. I'm doing good" list which frankly made me gag. So let's just say that over the last 3 days I'm 2 for 3. I actually have noticed something different already -- I feel way more attuned to the kindness given to me. A thoughtful voice mail message, for example, left at a moment when I really needed to hear from a friend. Kismet. Kindness. The same thing in that it's helping. So enough of the Stuart Smalley stuff. And back to our regular programming.

I think I have figured out why I am walking around like Linus with a little cloud of dirt corrupting every nuance of my life: I'm jinxed. No, seriously. And I think I know why: Lack of balance. Now, I'm not talking about missing fiber from my diet. Or that my inner core is lacking some firmness. I just think somewhere along the line this year, I was distracted and took the wrong turn down some alley where it just ain't that friendly. Where cab drivers tell me racist jokes AND THINK I'M THE KIND OF PERSON WHO AGREES. So here's my plan. I'm going to be super friendly. To everyone. Yep. Kind of like that random acts of kindness idea. I'm going to try and do at least one kind thing everyday for the next 30 days. For anyone. And I don't mean filing the tip jar. I'm talking kindness. I'm talking helping a mom with her stroller up the subway steps. Smiling at the grumpy woman with three boxes of Triscuits who cut in front of me at the drug store. Waitin...